ok im starting to calm down. heres whats up right now. she wants me to go with her to a party sat. night that her new friends from work are having. part of me says great she wants me to be around her NEW FRIENDS, then part of me says what now? i know i can be fun around these new people, but inside i will be looking in the crowd trying to see it THE OTHER GUY IS THERE, wonding who is he is it that guy or that one, i will probably drive me nuts. i was talking to a female friend from work about my sitch. i told her she is like trying to decide to jump into a pool, puting her feet in and testing the water, she knows its really cold, but also if she just jumps in it would be fun and refreshing, and then would not want to come out. she told me yea but she needs to jump in on her own, that if i would push her in then she would be pissed at me for that, that she would either get right back out and cuss me out or she would stay in and think me later for pushing her in because now she is having so much fun. i know i should let her jump in on her own, but man i sure want to push her in and see what her reaction is.
