you know as im here venting, she is emailing me telling me about tonight (going to her sisters rehershal dinner) and also making plans for tommorow night after her wedding. i should be happy but why am i not? i know she is trying, but my feelings are going crazy right now. i dont even know what set me off this morning. i guess its just that i do feel like we close but yet so far away that is driving me nuts. whats wrong with me??? im messed up today.
