just you saying that it might not have been a clean break still hurts me. because i know your probably right. she told me it was hard for her because he was such a good friend. YEA RIGHT! but she knew it started for the wrong reasons. she didnt talk much last night, was very depressed. but she did tell me it was over with him, i somewhat believe her because how depressed she sounded on the phone. but the bottom line she is still working at the same place they met, so i know its not a clean break, never seeing each other again. she insists that he was more of a friend then any thing else. again how do i know for sure. i should be happy about this, but im still messed up, gut still hurts, not hungry at all, and still can not sleep. every time i start to think this nightmare is comming to an end my mind messes me up again. but im going to continue what i have been doing because that does make me feel better. just showing my depression in here not too her.
