well as i wright this i have to say that last night was a very difficult night. my wife started off the r talk. she could not understand why this was easy for me to try to fix. which was not settling for me. i told her it wasnt EASY for me, that i had alot of dout going thru my mind about her. i said some pretty hard things to her about what i was going thru, she had no idea. but the whole time i said im working on those issues. i also told her i have changed for myself to better me where ever this r goes, with or without her. i even went as far as to tell her im letting her go, so her guilt could pass. she would not let me do that. this is what she emailed me this morning: Mike, last night really made me think alot. Im meeting om tonight to totally break things off, cut the tie. im doing this for myself, so i can focus on us and our family. im not saying ill move home right now, but i want you to know that i do love you, that has never stopped. im so mixed up emotionally as you know, and talking to you last night is really hard for me, the letting things out in the open, but im going to work on that. i just wanted to let you know this first thing this morning, cause i really thought about it last night. i cant make promises that it will be easy for me but i am going to do my best. i will need my space just to sort things out as we go, and i know you understand that now, and i love you for that. im sorry for everything that has happened between us and hope we can start fresh, take things slow and see how it goes.
So thats how it went, good i hope. but time will tell.
