your right and i know that. she has asked me for the old me back, even before she left. i told the that the other day, i told her to look into my eyes and tell me who she sees. if i wasnt the old self again. she says she sees parts of the old me back. i have been trying to show her the rest of the old me back. she would get all of the old me if i was confident on knowing the other guy was gone out of the picture. she knows that, i have told her that. but your right, i need to be my old self for me, i like being that guy. life just beats you down over the years and you lose sight of that, but im trying to regain it again. with other people its easy, with her its hard, why i cant explain it other then what has happened. she also knows that when i finally make up my mind about something i stick to it. right now im fixed on repairing my marriage, but in the near future i might change my mind and give up. i dont want too but i need to be happy.
