Just wanted to keep this thread current. I might have to start a new one with a better fitting title... what that would be I don't know yet.
I haven't gotten the balls to tell the W that I would like to start seeing an MC, a different one. I'm kind of afraid to shake the kind of steady tree we're on right now. W still communicates with OM and it still makes me depressed more than angry when I see it. She doesn't flaunt it in my face but I know she does. The one odd thing about my sitch is that my W acts and talks like her thing with the OM is over, that he's just a friend... (50cent song in my head right now, look it up). I mean, she talks about the future, meets my manly needs, affectionate, and complimentary of what I do for the her and the family, BUT the OM is still there.
How long this will go on and how long I will be able to live with it, I don't know. W still has not said ILY directly, although there were a few times that it was express in different ways. Is she afraid to say it because she feels guilty saying it because she has not severed the R with the OM? Sometimes, I do entertain the thought of giving it up and maybe just being single father, I dunno, it's just one of those frustration thoughts I guess. It's even harder when you don't have anyone to talk to.
Sometimes I have a hard time posting on this board also because my sitch doesn't seem to compare to the others, it looks like childs play. When I have good days, I hesitate to post because it looks like I'm rubbing it in (to me anyway). I think there's more head problems in me than I can figure out on my own.
