Quote: But still deep inside me, I think why did it have to take an A or a job change for me to get up and do it.
Why, because after a while we all tend to take our lives for granted. I do not condone what your wife did though, she should have talked to you about it instead. (FYI, I wish my H did the same, instead of running to the arms of OW)
Quote: At one point during the darkest times of this mess, I even thought, well maybe now that I drive myself around it won't be too bad if she had walked away.
That is how you should be feeling. Do not become so codependent that you no longer can do things on your own.
As far as her going out with "friends". Let her. Remember, you cannot control her. Don't pressure her to feel sorry for you because you will be alone. Pressure = run. Instead, let her think that you are looking forward to this time to yourself. Find something to do that will give you joy and take your mind off of this crisis. You will be OK!!
