Mama and whatisis, I really feel that license thing was the biggest thing I have ever done for this M. My W thinks and looks at me like I'm a different person (the good kind). But still deep inside me, I think why did it have to take an A or a job change for me to get up and do it.
At one point during the darkest times of this mess, I even thought, well maybe now that I drive myself around it won't be too bad if she had walked away.
One thing that we had brought up during out short conversations about our R is that we are both glad that "hot heads did not prevail" during the times when we were arguing , not really arguing but discussing the A and how we're going to deal with it. If hot heads and anger did prevail then, we won't be where we are right now. Both of us cannot see our S8 with separated parents though. We both agree that he is kind of the glue that was holding us together even though there were a lot of friction during that time.
The other day she had mentioned that she might have plans during the weekend to hang out with her friends. I asked, like who? She said, "guess". I did not like that one bit but I did tell her that I'm not stopping her and that doesn't mean I like it either. I asked if I had anything to worry about and she said, "I don't think so".
A couple of days later, my sister asked if she could take S8 with them to California for the weekend, W and I agreed but then she realized that I was going to be by myself Saturday when she goes out to hang out with her friends. I don't know if she's still going, or if she had already cancelled knowing I will be by myself while she's out having fun. I did not give any comments when she said that.
My plan today if she is still going is to let me know when she's about to get ready so I can leave the house and not see her preparing and leaving to meet her friends and OM. Does that sound reasonable?
