I have not posted on my own thread for a little over a month. Things have been good so far but it could be better. I know things don't get fixed overnight but the thing that's going on in my sitch is a little tough to handle sometimes. I can't help but get depressed when the right triggers get hit.
We did go away on vacation for a week to "get away" and at the same time do something for our 9th anniversary. We had S8 with us and it was all fun. No email for the first few days but W did check hers at some point later during the trip, I think it was on the 6th or so day. We had a great time, if you seen us you wouldn't even get a hint of a family in "crisis".
I had asked W about the OM a few days ago. What is the OM to her? W said he's a friend who she has to make time for, W compared OM to one of her tennis buddies. I also asked her "how far" has she gone with OM and her reply was "not very far". The thing the bothers me most is that it seems she wants to work on our M, keep my as her H, give me affection, kiss, ML and at the same time keep the OM as a special friend.
Sometimes, it seems that all this things W is showing me is not worth all the emotional distress I feel. I keep reading other posts on this board and I would really love to be able to voice out my feelings but even in front you guys who only read what I type, I still have trouble doing it.
I know that advice given here is just advice, any input on this wierd ass situation of knowing that your W gets up in the middle of the night to check email from a "friend" and receives text messages from a "friend" and still makes love to you. Am I nuts to be going along with this? Maybe, I love my family, and my W but how long do I have to endure this.
