For most this will seems obvious but for me (a born pursuer) this is a big step: Over the past month I've gotten used to not having my H around and have gotten involved in quite a few activities in my community. So, this week I'm suggesting that my H work late two nights.
I'm doing more to take care of my own needs so looking to him less.
One part concerns me: I still feel like I'll never trust him with my heart again--that doesn't make me love him less. It's a lot like loving a child--I accept all the responsibility for the emotional relationship both giving to him and not asking for anything in return. I'm not sure if this will ever change and it is not my idea of a healthy marriage but it's all I got. It is quite sobering. I feel more "adult" than I ever have--suppose it's good for one's repertoire but generally I've thought "adult" to be overrated.
It feels like we are on separate tracks not like we are partners. It's not all bad. Does this sound familiar?
