trent, thank you so much for the words of encouragement and wisdom! it's definitely a bitter sweet situation and i realize how DBing truly happens when the WA comes home. i'm learning about being independent but i think we need to learn to be interdependent. you are absolutely right about jotting down and revisiting what areas we need to work on but by being solution focused. as for H intention of coming back, you bring up a very good question and one that i don't and can't answer. i think H is motivated by his love for me but i'm not sure if he thinks there will be maintenance involved. i, however, will take your advice on praying for God's guidance and leading as i go into an exciting phase yet with caution.
i pray for you just about ev. day for you and your SO. i do hope there have been some baby steps for your situation but if not, there's still the luxury of time. God won't let you down. you've been a real servant putting out the scriptures and being a prayer warrior. God will surely reward you for your obedience as well as your helping others.