Lee - Glad I could help you smile. I do love my W very much, and to be perfectly honest with you, I have some selfish motivations, too. I guess there's a lot of truth to the old saying "when mama ain't happy, ain't no one in the house gonna be happy". I can't fix what's wrong inside of her, the best that I can do is help her get to a place where she can help herself. She can't do this when she gets too deep into the darkness.
When she's going through her depression heavy, I find myself questioning if I want to go through this for the rest of my life, if I have the strength to deal with it. I don't like thinking that way. One of my options would be to run away when she's like this, and coming back when it's passed. I did this in the past which didn't work too well, drove her deeper into it. I could try to take away her pain, "fix" her problems, but that doesn't work, and emotionally drains me. It sometimes helps to just listen to her, however, this doesn't always make the process go any faster. Maybe if we can fill her with small pleasures, there won't be room left for the pain inside, the good feelings will snowball and take over. Kinda like Kent's "anti-body" visualizations. Anything to make life easier and better for her, for me, and for everyone else around us. Still just a theory, but gonna give it a try!
Enjoy your popcorn!!!!
JJ
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