Before the new beginning- need advice

[Jamesjohn]

Hey Lee! YOU GO GIRL!! You're sounding great! I can feel your power and energy pouring through my computer screen!

"I'm really hoping that the surface "good stuff" seaps into the lower layers eventually ???"

That's exactly the theory I'm using, and it seems to be working for me little by little so far. It's another one of those great patience things, though!

Re the picnic: Try not to worry whether or not H is gonna go. Sounds like you've been doing great at work, so go there and reap some of the rewards! Plan on spending time and having fun with some of the friends you work with. If H shows up, well, good for him. If he doesn't, well, his loss. If he does show up, I'd suggest you stay with the plan of hanging out with others, and let your new-found spirit draw him to you. He'll see it as he's watching you with the others.

Maybe there will be some activities there that YOU can share with step-D, the 2 of you having fun together? I know that one of the most meaningful gifts I can give to my W is spending quality time with my step-S. It means a lot to her, and to him, too. Just a thought.

Take stock of the things you're doing right, then keep doing them. Keep up the "shining strong self", and he'll probably be drawn to you like a moth to the flame!

Glad you're doing good, my friend! Keep up the great work!!