H and I have been dark since Sunday- we left things on a good note (a hot and heavy one J) and then he went off to work on a creative project (which will hopefully help his mood) and I have been concentrating on work. It’s been really intense at work but I have been coming through and it’s giving me strength. My confidence, mood and energy have been really up and I feel other people reacting to it J
And so a bit of a challenge to that- the dark with H will probably end today or tomorrow- there are a few social events – tomorrow a lunch for a good friend of ours and then Saturday is the Company Picnic (we both work for the same company). He tends to skip this stuff lately, but I don’t think he will these. I don’t know. He has his daughter Saturday, who is fairly young and I haven’t seen her very often since the separation (11 months). I don’t relish the idea that they will be there, too and we won’t be there together. Sad. Should I go? I am worried a little about whether it will be weird for StepD – but I saw her very briefly a few weeks ago, and it went ok for all of us. If she sees H and I ok around each other, I think she’ll be ok. Maybe I can keep things light and just say hello to her and show her I still care (not pushy) and just see how it goes.
If I can keep my energy (be my current shining strong self J) I think it would be good for us. The StepD stuff is mostly H’s issue to deal with, but I still care- I think of them as my family (even though H doesn’t always act this way). I’d like this to be a simple, good thing for us all. What do you guys think? Any suggestions? Should I skip the whole thing?
