I lost my cool on Friday which had more to do with being in a low energy than anything happening with H. Was really dumb, started to open a can of worms (I almost started us on the OR talk about the D bomb H dropped a few weeks back) The worms started crawling out, spent the rest of the weekend persuading them to get back in there. Tricky little critters. Good thing was H realized the extenuating circumstances, and we agreed to "ignore it", and we did recover ok - we temporarily fell into the pursuit/distancer mode (guess who did which??) It levelled off though.
The extent of the conversation about D - H reminded me that we haven't gone back there yet, and he says he is still working on himself and exploring his feelings, though he did not say he was confused or taking it back, either. Not terribly reassuring, but I'll take it. He still initiates hugs and kisses. We got on like a house on fire yesterday (physically speaking). That is one thing we seems to connect through. He's more reluctant to talk, though. I worry sometimes if that will ever come back, I wonder if he is emotionally numb. Our conversations lately have been a lot more light and friendly (mostly) and I think this is a good sign. I'm really hoping that the surface "good stuff" seaps into the lower layers eventually ???
Other good news was that I really got MYSELF back up. I realize that you guys here (JJ and Kent) probably don't read the Oprah magazine but you should really read the new issue - it's all about SUCCESS. How to define it for yourself, and overcome self-limiting thoughts. It really inspired me!
(physically speaking). That is one thing we seems to connect through. He's more reluctant to talk, though. I worry sometimes if that will ever come back, I wonder if he is emotionally numb. Our conversations lately have been a lot more light and friendly (mostly) and I think this is a good sign. I'm really hoping that the surface "good stuff" seaps into the lower layers eventually ??? 
