Update:

Wednesday night we went out to our favorite little bar/restaurant. The owner commented that he couldn't believe we weren't with our kids. Had a really fun time, I made a point to not talk about our R or our kids.

Thursday night he worked late, I had been getting stuff ready all day for a garage sale and cut the front lawn when H came home he thanked me for doing so much work on my own and then he cut the back lawn. By the time we were done it was late, we ate and then sat in front of TV and H fell asleep in about 10 minutes.

Friday night he helped me clean up the garage sale stuff then we sat on the front porch listening to music, drank a few beers and ordered pizza. I thought about brining up our R but didn't want to spoil the evening. We were getting along really good.

This morning when H's alarm clock went off I scooted over to him and put my arms around him and we lay there for a while. After a while, with my heart pounding wildly from fear of rejection, I asked him if he wanted to see my tan lines. He got the message, hugged me tight for a long time and rubbed my back then said I should of asked him last night cause now he needed to get going to work. I felt really sad and hurt but I will not let it ruin my day. After his shower he kept hugging me really tight like he didn't want to let go and telling me he loved me and our family. I said I do to but we have to figure out a way to reconnect (if you know what I mean), he said he wanted to do that, knows how important it is. He mentioned how nice it is to talk to the kids on the phone and how freely they tell us they love us. He said he never remembers telling his parents that nor them telling him that they loved him. I reminded him that my family was exactly the same way, very cold and quick to criticize.

So....what does today bring? I will be back out doing a garage sale, by myself (he said he should be home around 1:00 to help me) then off on a 3 hour road trip to my parents house to pick up the kids. H is off Monday so I will continue to work on even though it is much harder now with kids around.

Thanks for checking in with me.

GH - too bad we don't live in the same state so we could have some sympathy sex with eachother - just kidding