Not much to update. My parents took my kids home with them yesterday (they live 3 hours away) so my H and I are alone (except for 2 dogs and 2 cats). I was so relaxed yesterday. I took care of my flowers, straightend the house (don't need to do that again for the rest of the week since kids are gone!) then went to the lake. I took a 4 mile walk and just enjoyed the scenery then got my chair and book from the car and sat and read and took in some rays. When H came home he was very pleasant and we hung out and watched tv together. I have a couple of kid free days ahead of me and may attempt to initiate a little romance. I don't know if he'll be receptive or not so I will try not to let it bother me if he rejects my advances.

I have also been deciding on bringing up MC again. In a way I feel like I'm sending the message that something is "wrong" with him that needs to be fixed, that's not what I want to do. I need him to feel that although I don't like the way he feels that I accept it and respect him for his honesty. Meanwhile I am continuing to work on me, my anger/reactions/emotions. I want H to see me as a beautiful, smart, fun, strong, sexy irresistible person.

Hopefully before the week is over you all will see a on my thread, cause like GH, 8 months is just too long to go without.