Lee, HO has offered good input. You appear to have some low esteem issues that you really need to address. Your post seems to place all the blame on yourself. We all know that it is not so. Don't slip back into the begging and pleading mode. You existed before H was in the picture and you will be fine if he leaves the picture.
Reach deep and find the strength to let him go and start moving forward with your life. You may wish to go extremely dim on him for a while as it seems that you really need to break your cycle of pursuit.
Hanging on to him will improve nothing.
Lee, I'm here to tell you that life is wonderful. When was the last time you felt that way? Start looking for the sunshine. Let H pursue his personal struggle alone. You have witnessed enough to know that you cannot help him through it.
Don't be in a hurry to leave the forum just yet. Put distance between you and H, stop returning all his calls, stop being available to be his friend that he keeps unloading all his confusion on. Take care of yourself. You need to be your #1 priority.
K
[This message has been edited by KentS (edited 08-01-2001).]
