Underdog, thank you so much for the "whacking". I am truely one messed up Mama. I will take your advice and will go to the bookstore right now. Going back over everything, I do see what terrible mistakes I have made and continue to make everyday.

My husband is afraid to open up to me. He even stated that is why a MC would help.

You are right, I am VERY controlling and want to FIX everything. I went over this with my C once. I even do this with my kids. I'm probably sending them the message that they can't do anything right. This is the EXACT message I received as a kid from my Dad. How do I end this? Ugg, I think I need counseling 24/7, probably a straight jacket too.

Underdog, please stick with me if you can as I definetly need a good slapping now and again.