Mama, don't feel worse, just empower yourself to change. Recogmnize what you are doing (you said you did not really know before) and work to stop. You CAN do that, and yes, maybe the C could help. Go in there with that as your goal. I know that was #1 on my list of goals with C.
And, I won't beat myself up TOO much. I can't. I've almost knocked myself out at this point. One more punch and...
