Update: A girlfriend (who knows my sitch) called me and calmed me down. Always, I will call you when I'm not such a lunatic.
H waltzed in around 7:15 all happy. Says sorry, he just loves that car. was showing it off to people at work and had a few beers. Didn't say where or with who. I didn't really respond, I was on the computer trying to get my yahoo music account to work. Asked him if we had REO's greatest hits. He said ya, went and got it and then put it on the stereo. Turned on Time for me to Fly and asked, "Is this the song your looking for?" I said absolutely, it's my new theme song and I started singing along real loud. He knows I'm mad but didn't instigate a fight. Kids friends were over so we all went out side and started a fire so they could make smore's. I reigned in my anger and swallowed my pride and was pleasant. Told him take the car tomorrow too, (I don't want it anymore) said I'm taking the kids to the lake and there is not enough room. If he follows his pattern, he will go out this weekend (OW doesn't have her kid).
As I sit here and look at my wonderful little family, our pets, my things, my beautiful house and yard and the fact that I'm able to enjoy it every single day (I don't work) I think to myself do I want to give this all up? If I give in to my anger and hurt ego and throw the bum out then I will be forced to either sell my beautiful home or go get a full time job and have to put my children into daycare. I'm not ready for that, so here I will sit and let H continue to live his double life and I will continue to DB, although half-heartedly I'll admit since I am so tired of this
