Wow! Simply Amazing. Since she declared her love for the OM and I told her I would give her her so desired divorce I saw an incredible change today.
She actually called me 4 times today the 3 call was to ask me if she could get councelling thru my insurance. I said yes but why the sudden change in wanting to go. I had asked her to go over 4 months ago and she refused. Today she told me that she wanted to go so she could sort out her feeling and hopefully decide what direction she wanted her life to go in. No promise we still wouldn't divorce but she asked me if I would hold off on going forward with it while she went to councelling.
I told her that it is fantastic that she wants to go and I even told her how proud I was and that it takes a lot of courage to admit when you need help.
I replied with a question. I asked her if she had considered if I wanted to put my life back on hold for her like I had been doing for the last 4 months so she could continue to try and work it out in her mind. I told her I was ready to move on and would need some time to think about whether or not I was willing postpone the divorce and go back into waiting mode. She has continued to show me the little affection signs and keeps saying ILY when she gets off the phone but this time I won't echo those words as I have done in the past. She simply gets I'll talk to you later ad goodbye.
She was oh so confident last night that the OM was ready to leave his W for her. I have a feeling when she saw him today to give him the news that we were over she didn't get the reaction she was expecting from him. I know she didn't expect me to say I waned the divorce and she seems to be running scared at the moment. Strange isn't it, I was ready to go forward and now I she is not so willing to do the same. It does feel good to be more in control of my life.... I will keep you all posted on todays developments. I still don't know that I even want her back at this point. I'll have to search my feeling again now!
