How is everyone else doing out there? Miss you all. Hope no news is good news.
I'm practicing "dimness" and "acting as if" - haven't seen H in a few days, just a couple of short friendly emails and calls, he usually gets emotional when we talk, even about nothing. He says lots of "I love you's" and "you're so wonderful to me's". It was his birthday yesterday and he's sick, too. What a week.
I had a hard time buying a present - felt oddly unsure of my ability to pick out somthing he'd like, and a bit defeated that OW would likely give him something, too, and it would be much better... ick. Felt like just fading into the woodwork. Awful how this stuff plays with your head. I just resigned myself to the fact that I can't think of it as a competition.
I went by, and saw he was home, so I just left the gift in the porch (funny card instead of sappy one). He was really touched by the gift, and cried (The gift was spectacularly non-sappy.).
