Thanks for the encouraging words, Me2. You've given me some things to think about. I agree that he doesn't trust himself right now. He doesn't trust himself to know what he wants or to live up to his own word. He says he doesn't know himself anymore. He also has to be honest to himself and to everyone else for a change, and I can see how that is tricky when you're feelings are so intense. Recommitting not exactly the priority right now.
This week has been odd. We had a good day together Monday, then I haven't heard hardly a word since then.
I haven't been initiating much contact either. I have been just working and taking care of me and feeling somewhat happy just doing that. Dropping the rope a little. He's been dealing with his very busy world, and I feel a little brushed off. He says it isn't so- but we'll see. Our anniversary is Monday. He asked me for my thoughts on how to spend it, (was the first time we really talked about it) I told him I'm torn between not wanting to face his indecision and ambivelance that day- spend it alone- or with him, being hopeful- I just don't know.
He left me hanging on that- didn't have time to talk about it right away (yesterday), (yet he was more upset than I was about it) -but I am getting frustrated today- still no continuation of that conversation. So much for wanting to "underpromise and overdeliver". He seems quite content to let me sit and wait for him right now.
