I am leaning even harder towards busting my DB/DR efforts by wanting to try to fix OR by myself. My W has been so kind and open towards me lately. I suppose that is all the more reason to believe in God and my DB/DR efforts and just continue to GAL, to back off and move forward as though OR is over. THAT makes me sooo sad to think in those terms. Grrr, I still want to offer her some of the great information she has, she'll be in the car for 2 hours tomorrow and could listent to it then, but ofering the information is probably not a wise thing to do, right? Would look like me chasing and/or trying to fix probably, right? Ugh. I hate that I have done what I've done and hurt her the way that I've hurt her.
I will pray for now and continue to turn myelf, my family, my W and my M over to Him and trust that He will do His work in all of our lives as long as we trust in Him and display patience. I know that all will turn out well as long as I stay out of my (normally disastrous) fixing mode.
The more my W and I talk, the more positive interactions and times we have together. I need to trust that our ability to have those times are small miracles in and of themselves. I am fighting my urge to focus only on the end result that I want to see. I know that celebrating each and EVERY small miracle will produce more of them in a synergistic way.
The enemy holds no power over me as long as I trust in the Lord.
