I often feel like down, close to wanting to quit, but then I remind myself that right is right and then I refer back to the Serenity Prayer and the additional verse that AmyC offered up.
Quote: God grant me the courage not to give up on what I think is right even though I think it is hopeless. Amen
I don't just think, I know, that fighting for my M and to keep my family together is right and righteous. So do you. Keep on keepin' on. In the future, I know I will NOT regret trying everything to achieve redemption, resoraration and reconciliation for myself, my M, my W and my family. Other than growing in my faith, I cannot think of a higher purpose for me.
Regardless of my W's ultimate decision, I can look at myself in the mirror and be proud of whtat I have been trying to achieve. I am proud of me so far. I have grown as a person, a man, a Christian, and a father. I hope for the opportunity to show my growth and changes directly to my W, but I know that that opportunity is in the hands of God and my W.
When I pray, I start with my thanks for whatever comes to mind; always my children, my W, the beautiful day, all of you DB/DR brethren, etc. I progress to praying that God work His will in our lives and reveal His word. I also pray that we will be open to receiving His will and His word and that we will find the will within ourselves to act upon what we see and hear from God.
I understand that what I may hear and see from God regarding my M may. quite possibly, not be what I want. I don't believe that will be the case. I believe, as Amy does, that God wants my M and family to be put back together more than I do. But I am prepared for the possibility that my want may not be His want or will. I pray the He will open my eyes and show me that that is His will and He knows better than I. THAT is me giving up control. A HUGE positive step for me.
