Sheesh, I am loooong winded. I scroll down my own posts and shake my head in disbelief. Oh well, I have a lot to say about my sitch. I do find this site therapeutic.
Today was an extremely busy day at work. That helped me to keep my mind off of my marital troubles for much of the day but the overriding feeling is one of suffocating sadness. I often struggle with my attitude of I want what I want and I want it NOW! But then again, I am doing my struggle in silence and on my own. THAT is a big step forward for me and I am happy that I am making progress every day in bettering myself and my ability to make proper choices.
I am working daily to consciously change the direction of my thoughts when my mind moves toward my W. But work is only able to divert my attention for so long. I must eventually go to my sister's place and get some sleep. It's approaching midnight and I need to get up at 6:00 AM and get back to work. It's nice that I am good at and enjoy what I do. Gives me confidence. Makes me feel better in a down time.
Looks like I am not going to be able to get into my place until the first weekend in July. That makes me a little sad, but I do look forward to getting my own place to hang my hat and take my children. The prospect of getting my own place, I know, is part of GAL, but it hurts like hell. I long to be home with my W and my children.
That makes me a little sad, but I do look forward to getting my own place to hang my hat and take my children. The prospect of getting my own place, I know, is part of GAL, but it hurts like hell. I long to be home with my W and my children.