Quote: When you first came here, you found the fire pretty quick.
Thank you for noticing.
Quote: Problem is, you think once you've pulled YOUR head out of YOUR ass, your spouse should do the same in a fairly short amount of time.
Yep. Sucks that I did what I did to hurt my M, W, and family. Sucks that my want is not a reality.
Quote: I knew you were headed for a fall. And I had to let you.
My story (to me) seems so unique. Dumb a$$, I know. Same as my marital problems. Seemed they were unique to me as well. To top it all off, I didn't seek out info like DB/DR BEFORE I stepped out of my marriage and jeopardized my M and my family life. Of course, I was TOO smart to think about the consequences clearly. I was hurting and justified my stupidity with my hurt and feeling of lack in my M.
Quote: So what was that imagined "date" you had in your mind that you'd be reconciled by?
Already came and went.
Quote: See now a chain of events has been kicked into high gear. Now it's HER that's lost. Keep your mouth closed regarding the R. Keep your eyes on the hills.
It is now clear to me what you meant in your previous counsel to me; I cannot help her find herself, correct? God needs to work in her life and she needs to seek God and be open to His message. You told me about the wounds in my M and in my W that are beyond my healing powers and I need to turn them and my W over to Him to heal.
Quote: THAT'S where your Help comes from.
I see, I SEE. Time to grow my faith and work on giving up control of my life and happenings by turning it all over to God.
Quote: This is where you take your hands off the wheel.
I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared to give up control. I've been struggling to do this recently and even though my life under my control is a disaster in some very important ways, I am still deathly afraid. I am searching for the reason why I am so afraid when I have failed so often to act righteously in the past.
