more journaling 5/31/06

I thought, perhaps, that I may have spoken improperly with my W when she was telling about her ill feelings towards her GF. Our previous phone conversation ended suddenly and I thought immediately, "Uh, oh!" I truly thought I had stood on my soap box and offended her when all she maybe wanted was a sounding board.

I tried unsuccessfully to contact her and finally reached her about 2 minutes ago. She immediately told me they were running behind and that she would have D5 call me soon after the bedtime ritual was completed. I asked her to give me 1 minute b/c I left her a msg and wanted to actually say something directly to her. She granted me that minute and I told her that I felt I may have soapboxed her when she may have been only been looking for a sounding board.

I told her that if I offended her or stepped on her toes that that was not my intention. I said I was sorry if that was the case. She said, "No, no. You actually validated my feelings and I really appreciated it. Thank you."

Hurray! All that turmoil I put myself thru for nothing...well, coulda been something but wasn't. I still don't know about the how the phone call ended so suddenly, but it was probably just her battery running out of juice. Who know? Who cares? A happy moment on a not so happy day.

It's nice to know that despite the fact that we are on the path she has chosen, she still feels comfortable enough with me to seek my opinion, to get my counsel, to listen to my "take." I'll take THAT fact as a positive. See, already working on my PMA. Gotta pump it up when I can, right?

Well, back to reality. I gotta get an answer to my question regarding the mediator's work and when my D stopwatch begins or began. Doesn't really matter, though. I am "on the clock" regardless, am I not? As I previously said, NOW the real DB work begins.

We have entered round 1. No more wondering about being served. I'm fit. I'm strong. My PMA is primed and pumped up. This is a marathon, not a sprint! My attitude, belief, faith, opportunism, love and vision will see me through to victory in reconciling and rebuilding my M. Go, fight, win!

OPPORTUNITY
Quote:

Opportunity.... Often it comes disguised in the form of misfortune, or temporary defeat. -NAPOLEON HILL


This defeat is temporary. I always liked the war quote, "We may have lost this battle, but we will win the war." I am in a battle with the devil to win back my W, my M and to preserve and protect my family.

or
Quote:

In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity-ALBERT EINSTEIN


He was brilliant. I choose to listen to him! My life has NEVER had more difficulty, yet I focus on the opportunity to seize my life, my W, my destiny, and my family.

or
Quote:

Don't wait for extraordinary opportunities. Seize common occasions and make them great...weak men wait for opportunities; strong men make them. -ORISON SWETT MARDEN


I am a strong man. My mission/opportunity in life is to beat the D clock to rebuild my M, to win back my W, to preserve and protect my family. My vision is clear, I will make the most of the opportunity I have to strengthen myself and change myself into the man God intended me to be all along.

VISION
Quote:

Nothing happens unless first a dream. -Carl Sandburg


I dream of a fulfilling, loving, nurturing, God-centered M and family.

or
Quote:

Think little goals and expect little achievements. Think big goals and win big success. -DAVID JOSEPH SCHWARTZ


My goals are HUGE! I will have HUGE successes!

or
Quote:

Vision.... It reaches beyond the thing that is, into the conception of what can be. Imagination gives you the picture. Vision gives you the impulse to make the picture your own. -ROBERT COLLIER


My vision of greatness for myself, my M, my W, and my family is crystal clear.

Thank you all for listening. Can I get an Amen?!

Last edited by Hopeful_Husband; 06/01/06 02:30 AM.

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