2nd installment today... Need to vent again.

I admit it- I am obsessing. Having a lot of trouble getting through this day. Can't concentrate on work. Been pretty much dark for 3 days and I guess either he prefers that or hasn't noticed... Either way feels pretty bad from here. My pride (and DBing) is preventing me from contacting him and saying "what's going on?"

And I wonder where on earth my PMA went?? Last week was really good!? I did a lot of stuff for me this weekend and I even went to the gym at lunch to try to get myself out of this funk (and to get away from the phone that isn't ringing.. ) Why don't the good times stick with me for long? I suppose I am just suffering from expectation. It gets worse as time goes on. Gonna try to do anything to get out of this.

LeeP