I've come to dread weekends, and Mondays because of all the hurtful and difficult things that have been happening on weekends these last months. I did mostly enjoy myself, but as it wore on, I started feeling uneasy and resentful. H didn't contact me once.
So I'm having trouble with my PMA today. Feeling frustrated. I wonder whether he spoke to ow, etc... He knows that it is difficult for me to call him on the weekends because it previously turned out badly, so I don't. BUT he told me last week he wants to keep dialogue open and be there for me, too. And yet he doesn't realize how unapproachable he makes himself sometimes. OR he does. Whatever.
I know I should focus on the progress, but I don't know how to talk to him today, if he calls- I'm feeling so insignificant to him.
If last week was so special to him, as he said it was, then why couldn't he do something to let me know. An action? I have no idea what he is doing or thinking right now, and I guess that I shold be ok with that, but I'm not, today.
Now if he does contact me, I'm in this resentful place I don't want to be in. I guess it isn't a good idea to tell him why, so I'll just avoid him until I have a better grip on it.
