Thanks K. I needed to hear that common sense, feel like I'm in a pressure cooker and it's nobody's fault but my own. You pin pointed it- I have to work on patience. I need lots of it right now.
the OR talks- He does start most of them, and they're not usually bad (just more intense lately because of his intense feelings right now)- I want to be more aware of HOW we have them, how they start, end, and whether they need to be cut off sometimes. And to make sure I am not REACTing like I used to. I need to gauge this by his level of tolerance and my level of self-discipline.
I guess I keep looking for shortcuts in this process, but there aren't any. The longer path will hopefully be the successful one. Yes, I very much want a second chance for us, I think we both see that there is a lot of good still there, and a lot of potential. That is what I want to focus on.
