Feel a bit like I'm caught in a web without DB tools and I don't know how to get them back.
H got home yesterday, didn't end it with ow (chickened out, basically) but still insists he wants to be with me - he's stressed about how to do it and the intense stuff he's going through around this.
So I backslid obviously, talked OR again. We were having a great tmie together and then he started with the lightbulb moments: "I've been a jackass, I want to be with you, i shouldn't be worrying about how to end it, I should just do it" etc...
And I feel I'm cracking. HE seems sure he wants to be with me, then why doesn't he just do it? I know I have to detach. I know I have to avoid OR talks. It's like we've moved into a tough stage where htings are too intense to just be friends until this noose is off our necks. (ow).
