By no means am I a buddist monk that will chant while getting hit on a face. I used to give silence treatments and lash out at the stupid things and even though I would know that the fight was stupid my pride would get in a way to admit it and make peace. Now the roles seem to be reversed - it's him who does the silence thing (which is ridiculous because he told me how much it hurt him when I did it), it's him who gets defensive at the sign of possible confrontation, it's him who I feel is not LISTENING (another ridiculous thing is that those used to be my trademarks ). I don't think I have a full grip on the anger but I know that even if I get lost in it I find my way out quickly, I'm not ashamed to appologize if I blew up over nothing and it's me who reaches out with peace offering. H agrees that I made big steps in that area but I do agree that there is more to it than just perfect SL that he seems to be gripping for right now. What if he trully is afraid that once my demons are recognized and delt with the spotlight will turn on him and it will be his turn to face his shortcomings....Hell! The time has been all along, the work on M cannot be done just by one party - he lives on past glories of working for it before he threw in a towel and asked for D in the first place. He thinks he racked up the points that he can float on but the way I see it is: I'm moving forward, I'm working on my well being and he is standing still (actually, probably taking some steps back while at it). It's like that little kid that will break his own toys to show mother how angry he is with her. But what's his anger? What's his beef? He hasn't admitted to that yet....
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