Yesterday was our 4th anniversary. I didn't feel sad or down at really any part of the day. I thought I might get depressed or feel really bad, but I was ok with everything.
H had given me two cards, one to open the day before and one for the day of because I always like to prolong any celebration. They were very nice. The first one was kind of an inspirational card and the second was a really funny one that makes me laugh every time I look at it. Inside he wrote:
"Whatever has happened, is happening, or will happen, this day does hold meaning for me. It is a date that reminds me to appreciate the contributions you've made and continue to make to my life. Thank you for those. Love ***"
I'll take that and not sit and second guess a single part of it. Could be total bunk, but that's unfortunate for him if it is.
He also bought me something but of course it's on backorder-what else would I expect from a procrastinating mlcer .
I am really in an ok place, I remember last year how awful our anniversary was and how my whole life felt like a downward spiral. I'm a better, more whole and happier person after coming out at the other end. This experience has made me a stronger and more secure person. I'm a big believer that God gives you tests for a reason and only those tests he knows you can handle.
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