Like I told Emily, you don't NEED to believe him because you already have your life and you KNOW you'll be ok without him.
NOW, wanting to believe him is a different story. I would say to go for it. Allow yourself to want to believe him, to WANT this to work and have hope that it will. I think he's saying and doing the right things and why not, have some hope. This could be the time he finally gets it and I think your strength and persevere through all of it has a lot to do with that.
I haven't been around in awhile. Just stopping by. I'm going to pray for you. Geez! SO is still crazy as ever. He's so incredibly lucky to have you as his rock. Hope some day he appreciates it!
Quote: NM - Did he say why he didn't want you to take any of her calls?
Ellie No...and I didn't really want to ask. Why? What's your thoughts?
Well...um...kinda hate to bring up this possibility, but could OW be pregnant? He wouldn't be the first WAS to run home once the OW gets pregnant and reality hits the fan.
Other possibilities, of course, are that she wants to tell you some other dirt on H, or that she's a threatening wacko, or that he told her some kind of lies about you to justify him returning home (you're pregnant again? Dying of cancer?). Or he just might be worried she's planning to tell you some kind of lies to ruin your reconciliation (it's been done before).
Why not just ask him why he doesn't want you to take the call?
Ellie - Everything you wrote - well, it's all run through my mind. Plus a few others for good measure. I've been wondering exactly what he's telling her. But, I also wonder - does it make a difference? I mean, really. He's never come this far back before. And not in this way.
Today I said to him again that I wouldn't take her calls and if there was something I should know, that I hoped he would be the one to tell me.
He showed up here this afternoon; also parking his car behind the house so it couldn't be seen. That has me nervous. I didn't think she knew where our house was, but any fool with his real name and mapquest could find us easily.
We didn't do any talking. I didn't want to get into anything, so I made sure the atmosphere stayed away from any of that. Just didn't feel the need today. Still processing; taking it one at a time. It was odd for him to come out here, but good, too. He has to work at the bar tonight, so him coming here hasn't been the norm since he's had his own apartment. Said he can't sleep well at his place and wanted to be here where he could sleep better.
I still haven't had time to do any thinking today. Organize my thoughts or anything, but I plan to later after the kids settle down. I just have to get some of this out of me and I need to it here instead with SO. At least for now. So, more later.
Looks like I may get locked out, too. So new thread...
