SO went back to work today. Emailed me this morning that he didn't really want to be there, that he wished he could have taken the week off. He was supposed to come out here today, but said he wasn't sure. I told him he didn't have to; if he needed to rest. Said he would let me know once he left work.
He showed up here around noon with lunch for us...without calling and also saying he could only stay a real short time. I thought this was way weird but didn't comment on it. We ate; he checked his email, then said he had to go. So, he was here a total of about 45 minutes. The drive here is longer....anyway - once again, no comment from me.
He leaves and I didn't hear from him for hours. Finally, around 5 he called and I let it go to the answering machine. He started sadly talking into the phone and asking for someone to please pick up. I gave the phone to D7. She spoke with him then handed the phone off to me. He wasn't right. I asked if everything was OK....he said that he'd been trying to take care of things and get his mess cleaned up. He said he's broken it off with OW, but she's being crazy. Begged me again not to take any of her calls. I said I wouldn't. He said some more about her, said he doesn't want to be with her; wants to do the right thing. Said "Do you know how bad I want to come back there?" I thought he meant as in today - I wasn't sure...so I asked. I said "Now?" He said, "No, no move back home. I have to clean all this up. The last two years. Everything I've done. "
I know I'm forgetting things....I did say that he sounded a little negative, that I wished he could be more positive. I didn't say anything along the lines of us - I was really struck dumb by the things he was telling me. A little nervous, too. I felt at such a loss as to what to say....I didn't want to scare him with a picture perfect future of us or anything (not yet, anyway); nor did I want to preach about how it'll take time to get over OW - so, I didn't say much. Only agreed with him where I could; validated where I could...gave him support where he seemed to need it.
Towards the end, I did kind of change the subject to lighten things up. Turning to idle chit-chat to change the tone. After we hung up he sent an email that said: "Thanks for listening before.. Things..life will be all better soon. Have a good night." I emailed back, telling him I appreciated him talking with me both yesterday and today.
Then, not too long ago, the phone rings. Yeah, I'll give ya'all one guess. OW. Kind of funny thing though, the answering machine (which clicks on after 3 rings) never picked up her call. LOL - guess the answering machine knows something. The phone rang 4-5 times, then she hung up. I was actually kind of hoping she'd hear the message, which is still SO, lol - I've never gotten around to changing it.
So, my saga for the day. I'm excited, yet nervous about what's going on with SO. I don't think he's being untruthful with me (finally!?) . And, I know I have a whole bunch of thoughts & questions whirling around in my brain - I just don't feel like thinking about them right now.
