NM, I don't know what to say other than offer you a hug. All that comes to mind is that "the Lord works all things for our good", so at some point we may understand the reasons for what we are all going through... or not
This is Sarasic, btw. I had a scare and changed my name.
Me 54 DS19 and DS17 Married 06/1989 Divorced 01/2011