Thanks ILM. You are right, suddenly I got in the mode to get things going in another direction and figure this out. I got frustrated. And I'm sure it's because a part of me was thinking "hey if I have to be an adult and back off with OG than H should too." But we're not in the same stages. I know OG would like me to move to his stage and just get this over with, but he realizes that although I'm ahead of H, I'm not in the same place as him either. Just gets so wearisome.

If he goes, I'll just take it as that. I'll make sure he sees me having a good time and hopefully he'll have a good time too. If he doesn't go, I'll put my "back way off" plan into action. Thanks for the wise advice, I just have to remember to slow down somtimes.

Lee-yes I do know her. She used to come to our house all the time. Funny enough H once told me I intimidated her. I still smile at the thought of that. I really don't think about her or how I could hate her or anything. It's just a waste of energy, she means so little to me. In my mind to worry about her seems to give her more credit than she should be allowed. She's a non-entity in my life. I'm not denying she's out there, but I just don't worry about it.

And I haven't seen her since H left. He is very careful to make sure we don't hang out at the same bars, parties, etc. Keep it all in the bubble ya know . We do have a party of a mutual friend coming up in September and I'm interested to see if we both show. He knows I'm invited also and I think it flustered him some when I mentioned it. So could be interesting.

I'm taking the day off tommorrow for some R&R at our state fair, so everyone have a great weekend.