Hey all...

Thank GH & OT...I haven't really read your responses, just want to get this posted asap....I'll get back to them in a bit.

So, the latest *THING*. It started this morning with me asking him NOT to come here today. I told him that it was time for me to start moving on and that I felt him coming here was hurting me when I didn't know what it meant. He wouldn't take no for an answer...then when he got here we talked a bit.

He said his Saturday nights were ending, and he won't have the money to pay rent and mortgage. That he would move back here. Somehow we got around to me telling him I hated it here because it was too far from where he worked and where my old company was (who called with ANOTHER job proposition, BTW.) He asked, where would you live, I said I wouldn't mind living back in Town X again. He said "Do you want me to sell the house?" I said "That's your decision and yours alone." He said, "Well I bought it for you."

I think I'm getting the order mixed up here...but the end result...that he said he "has to move back in, within one month, 2 at the most". I'm really upset. I told him that I would have to move out then. He said he moved out because I asked him to. I said "I asked you to move out because you were messing with another girl and then sleeping next to me every night and it was messing with my head."

I know, I know - no effective communication going on today. Althouhg, we "talked", not argued, I must say that. No yelling or blaming or anything like that. Sitting on the couch, his feet over my legs, just quietly talking. For once. And he even commented on how I looked two days ago. ??

I don't even know what to do or say to him. Or if I should. I don't like thinking he's going to move back here for "lack of money". That really hurts. I don't know if I should tell him that or just wait this out. And, even if he moved back here, me moving out would be the same damned cost as him living somewhere - as a matter of fact, his place is cheaper since it's only a one bedroom - I would need at least a 3, which is way more money. And why am I thinking about moving out anyway? I know why, out of my hurt that he hasn't said anything about "us". That's why. My defensive mechanism kicking in. And I swear, I could feel this coming in the last week or so. I feel like OK, he moved out to see if he could make a go of it with OW, it didn't work out, so now out of convenience he wants to move back here.

Ugh. What the hell is wrong with me.