Thanks everyone. I have been thinking about what I'll say today when I bring up the wedding. I'm just gonna keep it very laid back. If it comes up that I'm not seeing og first, I don't want H to think that I'm lonely and pursuing him now. Frankly, I'm sort of enjoying being on my own again. OG and I are still friends, he understands I just have to figure stuff out first, so that's cool.
Last time I was on my own I was in the total grief and freaking out stage, now it's fun. I just do what I want... so far fun anyway .
This has also been affective in giving my attitude a jump start. I'm tired of being the one that has to "do the right thing", "understand everything" and "act like the adult." He's not a kid, he can grow up also and act like an adult, make some scary sacrifices and decisions. That's life. Living in a bubble is not.
I'm still calm and cool about everything, but I just am a bit fed up with his crap... finally! Whew, took a while to get there.
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