Haven't posted for a while 'cause just not a lot to post. I've also been busy with my own stuff, but I'm doing really well. People keep asking me, and I'm like "really, I am happy" despite the big bump in the road I feel ok now.
H and haven't seen each other as much like we were. He is most certainly back with her and I've backed off and I'm letting him iniate lunches etc.-which he is. Still tells me he loves me and kisses me on the lips when ever we say good bye-that only started about a month ago. We certainly are not where we were 2 months ago, but I don't really think we're close to reconcilation either.
He's still working on himself a lot-going to counseling once a week. We have a session together this week also. It's so wierd, I don't know what to think about the fact we're like best friends, yet he's having an affair and I'm dating. It's really weird, nothing to compare it do.
I'm not really anxious about any of it anymore. If he wants to make this work ever again it's going to take a lot on his part, I'm not giving a lot anymore. I thought I was detached before, but this is true detachment finally. Still love and care about him, but not giving more than he is anymore.
Normalcy is very relative I'm discovering.
So continuing to troupe right along and enjoy life, db for myself and us, and be ok .
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