H and I went to a wedding together last Saturday night, had a great time together. Sat there like a married couple that had no problems btwn us, very weird. Still no intamacy or improved physical closeness between us other than hugs and short kisses.
H continues to go to counseling on his own, once a week now. Seems to be helping him, not sure if he's going to make some sort of decision at end of month or not. Not going to worry about it. I see H 2 or 3 times a week to go on mini dates as I would call them. We are definatly at a different level than we were 1 month ago, there's not really as big of a distance or anxious feeling between us. We've broken through that and now we just seem to really enjoy hanging out together, just not sure if we'll get past that point. I know he's still seeing OW, and for now, for some odd reason, it just doesn't really upset me. I'm letting him figure out his stuff and I'm enjoying life, dating a little on my own. Just sort of sitting back and taking care of myself and seeing where this all leads.
Hard to believe I've been on this board since November, and even harder to believe the changes that have occurred within me. I'm a totally different person and I'm pretty much happy with my life, even though it's got weird stuff going on, it's still ok.
later heidi
[This message has been edited by Saturnh (edited 06-06-2001).]
