Hang in there girl, remember where you were a year ago-6 months ago...it'll come, but he needs to 'mature' as you say. The lunch thing was a real bonehead thing to say-and believe that it'll be OK?? That's nuts.
But, then again, you cannot hold his hand and you will have to "trust" him again. I put that in quotes because it is a very relative term...in terms of how we apply it. As you know-that will take a long time and frankly HE needs to do pretty much all the work there-your work there is an internal one, know what I mean? I trust H to go to and from work every day and I know he will not be unfaithful. However, if we were faced with another long separation... I'd say (to quote you so eloquently) "are you f**king kidding" because that would be a whole'nother story.
Keep going towards what you want girlfriend..and remember that we'all ARE here. I remember thinking that while reading a post of yours in Newcomers (a while ago) that you must have the patience of Job....believe that you do.
