FWIW - I KNOW that my H has some issues with me. However, he rarely will address them or even admit to them. I find that makes it very difficult to expect there to be much progress.
Sometimes I almost get the feeling that our M is 70% lie:
He lies when he says he's attracted to me but chooses to mb instead.
He lies when he says he doensn't have any issues with me but clearly he does.
He lies when he says that our SL is important to him and yet, is reluctant to have sex.
He lies when he says that he wants us to be intimate in other ways besides sexual then fills his life with other stuff so that there isn't any time.
Basically, the entire part that defines the difference between a coparent/good friend and a wife/lover.
Which part isn't a lie? He loves me. He thinks I'm a good Mom. He thinks I'm a good partner. He appreciates that I'm a hard worker. Sure. I'm a good person to be married to for the most part.
Nicky, it will be a while until you recover from this. Give yourself plenty of time. I didn't find it hard to ml but I did find other things hard. I found it hard to watch DD2 learn new things and come ever closer to being a "big" girl, I found my periods to be hard (reminders of what I had lost), I found it hard on the date that would have been the due date - odd things were hard.
How about if you and your H just do some nice stuff for each other like giving a foot massage or something?
