It will do me no good to dwell on 'fairytale' endings, you are right. I wouldn't call it so much dwelling, as maybe having hope.
Like Dana said, I have a lot to be thankful for, and I am (had a great weekend/Mother's day) but I still like to believe that he would initiate that-at some point- becasue HE WANTS to, to renew what we promised each other-he knows that I feel it was shattered (but NOT beyond repair), and it would make me feel really great if he took the initiative there, because like I said, HE wants to-not because he knows I want him to.
Pipe dream? Maybe, but I like to hold on to the hope that someday he'll be able to do this for himself, me and us. Just like I am still holding on to the hope that someday he'll be able to tell me where we went wrong.
Putting it into prespective, everytime I start to get the blues about 'my hopes' I will think of your words (Alex) and remember like Dana said-be thankful for what I have.
