Thanks Me2 for your reply. It meant so much to me because you have gone through the same thing as I have. It isn't easy is it? Thankfully we have found a wonderful C but I can't go crying to her everytime I am down. I think I may be borderline depressed. I don't want medication but I am so weepy and miss my H so much. I,like you, have decided not to mention the vows again. I want him so badly to go for it but he is reluctant. It makes me think he's not sorry for what he has done, but I must turn that around and remember he came home to me and is doing everything in his power to set things right. I must look at the positive things and I must trust him..... a very difficult thing to do under the circumstances. Good luck Me2... let me know how things are going with you and if he does surprise you with vows.
KentS you helped me look at my H in a different light. Yes he is doing so many things that tell me he loves me. He even sent a gift to me for Mother's Day. He has never done that before. He also phones me when I seem down and he constantly tells me he loves me and that he will never hurt our daughters and me again. I have a lot to be grateful for. I just need to remind myself of that. Thanks to both of you!
