Progress, not Perfection!!

[Jamesjohn]

Just checking in! Going to another C session this afternoon.

Things are going ok, I guess. "Life things" are starting to get to W, she's slipped into her depression mode. She's trying to fight it, but it's there. I'm trying to stay detached, yet available. Takes a lot of strength and tongue-biting at times. Been concentrating on doing things with my stepson, and this is working good. Even W's noticed some differences in his mood and attitudes.

It gets discouraging at times, just seeing how much W has to work on HER before we can really go too far on US. I guess me being there for and with her right now IS part of the working on us. I do have to wonder sometimes about whether or not this R is the right thing for me. Whether or not the drama is going to last forever. Then I remind myself that love isn't a feeling, it's a choice, and I've made the choice to love her. The better or worse, sickness and health thing, right?!

There's gonna be some life issues coming up soon that I'm sure are going to be some BIG speed bumps. I hate for it to be the self-fulfilling prophecy thing, but I want to plan ahead for it. Hopefully, today we'll be able to come up with some plans on how to make it through. Together.

Don't mean to sound "whiney" today, just venting a bit, I guess. Thanks for being here.

Progress, not perfection, right? (BTW, I used this saying when talking to W about S, and she loved it. She really appreciated the attitude behind it.)