Progress, not Perfection!!

[Jamesjohn]

OK, so if anybody's out there right now, I need to vent.

W was MIA again, all afternoon, for both D and me. Her cell phone's screwed up, she can talk but can't hear. I got home earlier than usual, tried to call her, but no answer. She returned my call shortly after, was from a private name and number. Left a message, said she was over at her sister's earlier, and everything was alright. Couldn't help myself, drove by OM's house, and there her car was.

Can't face her tonite, had to leave. Packed up my toiletries, came back here to work, where I have a couch I can crash-out on. Part of me thinks I did wrong by leaving the house, but as I said, I don't think I could DB just right at the moment. Got a call from D's cell just a bit ago, didn't answer, and there was no message. I'm gonna stay here all night, and not answer my phone. I don't know what else to do.

I'm tired of this BS right now, I feel she either needs to commit to OR, or go shack-up with him. The choice is hers, I'll be fine either way.

I ran again, I'm not sure if it was right or wrong, but I saw bad things happening if I stayed. I think that right now, I just need to calm down, and deal with this with a clear head tommorrow.

I just have to wonder what the hell's going through her head right now (besides air!). Hopefully, I'll find out tommorrow.