I am soooooo pissed off right now. W went out with a couple of her single friends last night, and never made it home. I really didn't want her to go, she could feel the vibes, but I didn't tell her NOT to go. The choice was hers. I did ask her to give me a call if she was going to be extremely late, or decided to spend the night at her friend's house. I'm having a hard time with her doing this, she doesn't do it often, but I think that a married person has no business running around bars with single people. For some reason, I don't particularly like this friend, she is VERY recently divorced, and was around quite a bit this past year, enabling my W in her irresponsible phases. She would lie for her in a heartbeat.

Last time I talked to W was around 11:30 last night, said she was drinking water, and would be home soon. Well, either her f***ing cell phone battery went dead again (tired of hearing THAT crappy excuse), or she just turned her phone off. Called the friend she went out with about 2:45, she said W just left a little bit ago.

I left the house early this morning and came in here to work. I had to leave the house, I'm not sure if I could hold things together if I were to face her right now. I'm wondering what the hell's going on. I don't know if I should be worried that something's happened to her, or just flat out pissed. She can't be with OM, he's still in jail. I even drove by his house just to check, and her car wasn't there.

I left her a message on her phone about an hour ago, said I hope she was ok, I'm worried, please give me a call to let me know she's alright.

I'm tossing around what I should do. If I just let it go, act like nothing's happened, will I be teaching her that this is acceptable behavior, that she can do this again whenever she wants? I'm leaning towards confronting her, telling her that I don't deserve to be treated this way. That if she wants to be single, do the things that single people do, not have to account to anyone for her actions, then she can file the D papers tomorrow. Then she can go do whatever she wants, and be with whomever she chooses. That when she goes out and stays out all night, I feel anxious, worried, and angry. That I'm not comfortable enough in our new relationship to accept this, and it hurts me like hell when it happens.

In the old days, I probably would have not said anything, and just been pissed at her for a couple of days. I DO think I need to confront her on this, but need to find a way to say it so it doesn't sound like I'm trying to control her actions. She might be defensive or humble or apologetic, I need to figure out the scenarios for all these cases.
I need to set a boundary here.

We were supposed to have a date this weekend, go see a movie we both wanted to see. It didn't happen last night, don't know if it's gonna happen today. I don't really feel like being around her right now. Besides, I didn't sleep well last night, and don't know if I could make it all the way through a movie.

Thanks for letting me vent. Wish me luck.


JJ

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